On my Drive

Gps trying to take me a direction a sign clearly says has been closed for 2 months
A nervous young guy carrying a potted plant obviously meant for a date and really nervous about it
Topless guy carrying around a painting (as in on a canvas!) of a topless guy

Oh Pittsburgh 


Back to Work p2

It’s been between 3 and 4 weeks since I went back to work. It was a bit rocky at first when they were trying to put me on customer service where I would have spent all day dealing with returns and grouchy customers. Yeah, hell no! I stomped that notion immediately. After my last deployment there was some civilian directed anger and I don’t want to poke the bear on that, plus, I need to be outside. The weather is beautiful and being submerged in flowers, getting to talk plants everyday is exactly what my inner chill needs. 

I’ve worked mid shifts and night shifts and morning shifts so far and I have to say, morning shifts are freaking awesome!

Waking up at 4:30am is not great but once I crawl into work….

This morning I have: cleaned the counters, swept up the area, chatted nicely with the coworkers, and messaged friends(the ones actually awake).

And I have also shopped for new sunglasses, took 10 min to start learning how to Juggle (on the bucket list), worked on both my blogs (plantgeekery), did some squats, and soaked up some sun! I am still yet to have a customer. 

It’s a bit rough in the evenings with figuring out what to do with myself, but I’m trying to schedule things here and there. It’s been 3 months since I got home now. Guess I’m officially settled, it still all feels off but I did come home to a mostly new life. I think the adjustment period might be longer. 

Lesbian Dating: Game Show

I have been home for almost 3 months now and I have not opened the dating app since I landed. Though it helped me meet people and make friends in Texas, that was out of time. I’m in real life now and I can’t bring myself to do it. It keeps sending me notifications, I think I’m at 49 likes which feels good, but I just can’t. Maybe I just feel safer holding out hope my crush might say yes or I’m just too scared I’ll end up bad relationship again or I’m just not healed up enough or I’m too picky in my old age or maybe the prospects I see don’t do anything for me. 

Enter a game show on Hulu, First Dates. There’s a British version of this show and I’ve caught a few episodes. One was a lesbian couple that made me laugh and sigh about maybe someday. 

At the start of the show, part of me kind of wanted to apply. It sounds like there’s an interview process and comparability is researched. Who wouldn’t find a blind date kinda fun and daring. Maybe something would just click.

Until I got an episode and a half in, it’s just reconfirming my hesitance.  I am over 7 months out of my last long term relationship and 8 years out of casual dating and this show just scared the bjesus out of me, sure I know it’s reality TV but damn. 

I want love, I want a family, a wife and maybe kids (even if it’s just pets), and want the cliched everything, but that apps gonna stay unopened a bit longer, I’m not ready.

And why the hell is Drew Barrymore narrating this show!!??

The Must-Dos of Pittsburgh

36 hr whirlwind

Late night at Eat n Park, up to Mt Washington, brunch at Delucca’s in the strip, the Warhol, Carnegie Science Center, Night riding at Kentwood complete with potato patch fries and the Noah’s Ark, dinner at a micro brew in the Waterfront, finally a walk in the Phipps before departure.

And that is how you show an out of town friend Pittsburgh in 36hrs!

The Kid Who Explained UpĀ 

I was at my first drill the other day when I saw a young solder limping.

“You alright?” I asked thinking she was way too young to be so hurt.

“I wrecked my hip.” She explained as we waited for army coffee.

“In basic training?” I asked concerned. Most of the career ending injuries women take are hip injuries. A good friend of mine got hurt that way and never went back, even when healed up.

“Maybe.” She said but looked really confused by her own comment. “I went hiking around here.”

(So thats a NO to hurt in basic)

“You know when there are rocks on a mountain….” She then began to gesture in the air to indicate steep and up but felt the need to describe it, but without using any of those words.

“You went up the mountain?” I asked finally.

The look of relief on her face! This new unit should be interesting.